BREAKING: Sentencing for Josh Duggar
Leaving The VillageMay 26, 2022x
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BREAKING: Sentencing for Josh Duggar

This time Jess is joined by fellow LTV team member and childhood friend, Alexis Grey, as they react to a roller coaster of emotions surrounding the sentencing trial in the Josh Duggar CSAM (child sexual assault materials) possession conviction. They go over the details of the sentencing and what it means for his family as well as survivors.

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[00:00:18] And welcome back to Leaving The Village. I am your host Jessica Goforth and I am Alexis Grey.

[00:00:27] Today I am doing this with Alexis. I'm so excited. I'm excited too.

[00:00:32] Yeah, this is really fun. We introduced you to Alexis back when we brought them on board on our team and we were so excited.

[00:00:40] And they've been working in the background helping us with all sorts of social media and all of that.

[00:00:48] And that's been amazing. But today we had to jump on because today is Josh Dugger's sentencing.

[00:00:58] It's a big day.

[00:00:59] It's a big day. So we wanted to react right away. And Kathleen is really struggling with all of this and it's been really difficult for her.

[00:01:08] So as like Kathleen, do you just want to react in a live? And she's like yeah I just want to jump on and I want to do a live.

[00:01:16] And then I want to be done. I was like works that works for us. You do that.

[00:01:23] And Lex and I will jump on and we will record an episode for our podcast.

[00:01:29] It is a very emotional day for a lot of people. It really is understandable.

[00:01:35] There's a lot here. And yeah, so we'll just kind of get into reacting.

[00:01:41] First off, Lex has been taking notes all day. I still had to work all day.

[00:01:45] So I was trying to keep up with what was happening while at the same time staying on top of work stuff.

[00:01:51] So what do you have Lex? Like first of all, how did the day begin? Because this started first of the day.

[00:01:59] It did start at the first of the day and they spent most of the morning with a defense coming in

[00:02:09] and going by point through the charges. They did successfully get a charge dismissed.

[00:02:17] But the way...

[00:02:19] And who always there? Let's see, let's go through the list.

[00:02:23] Yeah. Jim Bob, of course was there.

[00:02:26] And Anna. And Anna was there. She got there very early.

[00:02:33] And dressed like an amish person. Like navy blue dress, all the way up to her chin.

[00:02:43] And like all the way down to her wrists. And like I was like you look like a nun.

[00:02:52] And it was really weird. And a mask, which is another thing I thought was odd because I highly doubt they believe in masks.

[00:03:00] It was probably more so people can use photo cards.

[00:03:03] No. So she was masked. Jim Bob was masked. Amy Dugger was outside talking to the media nonstop.

[00:03:13] Reading statements. But I also think she was allowed in the courtroom too.

[00:03:18] I did not see whether she was in the courtroom or not.

[00:03:22] I do know... Is it Jason Dugger?

[00:03:26] I get all the Jays mixed up.

[00:03:28] Joy Ann was there.

[00:03:30] I didn't list all the siblings. I think her brother Jason I think is his name.

[00:03:36] Okay, was there as well.

[00:03:39] I know that Anna arrived very early so she could spend a little time with Josh before everything started.

[00:03:47] And when he entered the courtroom she gave him the sign language sign for I love you as he passed by waiting for everything to happen.

[00:03:58] So she is definitely still standing completely behind him in spite of all this.

[00:04:05] Yeah, that was really hard for me.

[00:04:07] I know Kathleen whenever at Kathleen and I talk about the Duggers.

[00:04:12] Kathleen's really really careful to be like very compassionate with Anna.

[00:04:19] But you and I Lex we have a harder time.

[00:04:23] I very much do.

[00:04:27] You know, I am a survivor of childhood sexual abuse.

[00:04:34] And I was three.

[00:04:37] A babysitter has been used me to produce childhood sexual abuse material.

[00:04:44] And then I later on was also one of Bill Gothard's victims.

[00:04:51] And this is and I'm also a mom.

[00:04:54] So it's very personal for me as a victim and survivor.

[00:05:00] And also as a mom.

[00:05:03] Yeah, I know what it's like to survive what Duggers victims have survived.

[00:05:10] One of them even didn't survive. She died.

[00:05:14] I know yeah, I don't know the gender she or he they didn't survive.

[00:05:20] This is what he did is horrific.

[00:05:24] There's no words for it.

[00:05:27] The fact that he is part of the system that consumes this material.

[00:05:35] The creates demand for it.

[00:05:37] The creates demand for it is horrific because they wouldn't do it if there wasn't a demand for it.

[00:05:45] Exactly.

[00:05:48] And I think I want to pause for a second because

[00:05:55] I am so sorry that that happened to you.

[00:05:58] But also like,

[00:06:00] I want to remind people that I've known Lex since we were little, little, little girls.

[00:06:06] Like five or two.

[00:06:09] Yeah, we were, we were little kids to get hanging out together.

[00:06:13] And I remember, I remembered this today and it hit me like a brick wall that

[00:06:19] you were in my mind so good.

[00:06:22] You were this good child and I wanted to be like that.

[00:06:26] And I remember thinking how are they able to be so good all the time?

[00:06:32] You know, like, and now I know that so much of that was severe dissociation.

[00:06:39] Like there's no severe, like there's no way to survive to be a five year old child interacting in the world.

[00:06:48] Without severe, like, like disassociation and heavy duty coping mechanisms in place.

[00:06:57] And some of those coping mechanisms are highly sophisticated.

[00:07:02] We start that young very much so so sophisticated.

[00:07:07] And so what I thought was a friend who could do,

[00:07:11] could be what, like the perfect child, like you knew how to be good.

[00:07:16] In a way that I couldn't ever figure out.

[00:07:19] But I just was out of avoid trouble.

[00:07:22] When you were, when you're traumatized to that extent,

[00:07:26] you have to be safe.

[00:07:28] Like that's the only thing that your brain is screaming at you.

[00:07:31] Right.

[00:07:32] And so this, this compliance, this ability to follow direction, whatever it is like,

[00:07:40] I thought was you being good, was you being highly traumatized child.

[00:07:47] And it just breaks my heart to remember that child that I was so close friends with

[00:07:55] that we had so much fun with and I envy it.

[00:08:00] It's terrible, but...

[00:08:03] I wouldn't wish it on anybody.

[00:08:06] And to know that Josh has perpetuated the system, it's horrific.

[00:08:16] It is.

[00:08:17] And it is.

[00:08:18] It is.

[00:08:19] It is a sort of just stronger sentence.

[00:08:20] It did.

[00:08:21] And then to know that Anna is still defending this.

[00:08:23] Anna and then Michelle too saying, well he's kind of widows.

[00:08:29] Kind of.

[00:08:30] Right.

[00:08:33] Like it doesn't just don't get me started.

[00:08:36] It doesn't bring a child back to life that doesn't...

[00:08:39] No.

[00:08:40] That doesn't undo the damage that has been done to all these children.

[00:08:45] Not to mention his work with lobbying organizations that actively fight against children having protection

[00:08:55] and rights and the poor having what they actually need.

[00:09:02] And this is like being head of the Family Research Councilor.

[00:09:07] It's just their lobbyist group against all these things that help people who are poor,

[00:09:15] who are widowed, who are orphaned.

[00:09:19] Like don't tell me you care about widows.

[00:09:23] And they help queer kids.

[00:09:26] They lobby...

[00:09:27] They're one of the reasons the United States is one of only three countries that hasn't signed the UN rights of the child

[00:09:33] is because of the Family Research Council.

[00:09:36] So, you children don't have rights in America because...

[00:09:40] Because of Josh Dugger and the system that he participates in.

[00:09:45] So yeah, Michelle can keep her...

[00:09:49] He cares about widows thing.

[00:09:52] Right.

[00:09:53] Exactly.

[00:09:54] She can just take that.

[00:09:55] Put it where the sun goes on.

[00:10:03] So the day started out with them trying to kind of negotiate what was even on the table to be sentenced.

[00:10:11] Exactly.

[00:10:12] Throwing out certain things, including others.

[00:10:16] That was kind of how the day began, right?

[00:10:19] And so I think most people know that there's mandatory sentencing.

[00:10:25] But a lot of people don't know...

[00:10:28] And I learned this today myself that there's a point system when we sentence people.

[00:10:33] Yeah, explain that because you started to explain it to me earlier and I was like...

[00:10:38] I don't understand this.

[00:10:39] There are points and I don't fully understand how they came up with the appoints.

[00:10:43] He ended up with 39 points.

[00:10:46] And there are points for things that he was convicted of.

[00:10:52] And then, extenuating circumstances can add in more points.

[00:10:59] So all together he ended up with a total of 39 points.

[00:11:05] And for each point range you get a certain amount of months for your sentencing.

[00:11:13] And with the 39 points is how they came about that 151 months.

[00:11:20] Which is roughly 12 years.

[00:11:23] 12 and a half years.

[00:11:25] Yes.

[00:11:26] Did the defense get a possession charge removed today?

[00:11:37] And so that did play into it.

[00:11:41] They took into account the fact that he has no previous criminal record.

[00:11:46] So that was also part of the sentencing.

[00:11:50] During the sentencing, the judge looked at Josh and said,

[00:11:54] you have done a lot of good things and that's why...

[00:11:59] And that it's only fair for the court to recognize that.

[00:12:02] He also went on to say, but you show no remorse.

[00:12:07] And so I'm really glad that the judge did recognize that there is no remorse.

[00:12:13] That he walked into court looking like he owned the place and he was very confident of what was going to happen.

[00:12:23] So I'm really glad the judge pointed that out.

[00:12:28] Yeah, yeah.

[00:12:31] So that 151 months he does have to serve 85% of that which we were talking earlier does equal about 10 years.

[00:12:41] Yes.

[00:12:42] And how old is his youngest child?

[00:12:45] His youngest child is just being born right?

[00:12:48] Yeah, I think they were just born about nine months ago or so.

[00:12:52] And then it was pregnant when all this started.

[00:12:56] So the baby can't be more than five to nine months.

[00:13:02] Exactly.

[00:13:04] So yeah, so I was concerned about conjugal visits.

[00:13:08] I was like is he's just going to keep making babies?

[00:13:11] From prison?

[00:13:13] I was very concerned about this and I asked a friend of mine who's an attorney and she said conjugal visits aren't even allowed until you've served 95% of your or 85% of your your sentence.

[00:13:27] So so you don't get conjugal visits until 10 years in.

[00:13:31] That's a long time.

[00:13:33] And in his case, it would be 10 years.

[00:13:36] And then you can have a time apart which you and I know that.

[00:13:40] That's what I think.

[00:13:41] Time apart gives you a lot of...

[00:13:43] If you can only sit between with glass between you and have the kids wave 10 years is a really long time.

[00:13:52] And I really hope that it's long enough for her to leave the community, the bubble that she's in to reach outside of it

[00:14:02] and find out that what she's experiencing isn't all that unique.

[00:14:06] The abuse that she's experienced is significant and real and lots of people have been through it too.

[00:14:15] And they can walk with her and will walk with her through leaving.

[00:14:20] And maybe she will realize that she really wants a father for her children an active father that's not going to be like supervised for...

[00:14:28] Because so this is the other part of it.

[00:14:30] We haven't got to yet is that his probation is 20 years after he's completed his sentence.

[00:14:38] So even if he gets out early...

[00:14:41] And it's 20 years of supervised probation which everybody keeps on highlighting that supervised probation.

[00:14:48] Supervised probation is a big deal and that's different.

[00:14:52] That's different than just being let out and we hope you behave good.

[00:14:57] Talk some about that.

[00:14:59] Yeah, yeah.

[00:15:01] Again, that wasn't you.

[00:15:04] I've learned a few little things today.

[00:15:08] So he has supervised probation and as part of that he cannot be alone with any children.

[00:15:17] No, mine is his own including his own children including his own super vision.

[00:15:25] Which I think is court supervision not just Anna.

[00:15:29] But that's the way I understand it.

[00:15:32] That's what I understand it to be... I want someone to clarify that.

[00:15:35] I would like for us but that's how I'm understanding it.

[00:15:38] It's still early days right now.

[00:15:40] Exactly.

[00:15:41] So that means his children cannot be alone with them.

[00:15:44] We're talking even the youngest child we're looking at at least 30 years old.

[00:15:49] Yeah.

[00:15:51] And here's the thing is, I don't know these kids aren't going to be protected.

[00:15:55] Yes they are.

[00:15:56] And anybody anyone could allow their child to wander too close to him and catch him

[00:16:06] and then that's it.

[00:16:08] You go back to jail.

[00:16:09] You break probation and that's a big deal.

[00:16:12] That's huge.

[00:16:14] It's huge and it's a hair trigger.

[00:16:18] Like there's very loose, you know you just break those guidelines or whatever for it for probation

[00:16:25] and you're out.

[00:16:26] Exactly.

[00:16:27] So you're back to jail.

[00:16:30] Or prison.

[00:16:31] Back to jail.

[00:16:32] Exactly.

[00:16:33] And not only can he not be around minors, he is not allowed...

[00:16:39] He can't be around to own a computer or even access a computer.

[00:16:47] And without express permission from his probation officer.

[00:16:52] Right.

[00:16:53] So he has to get permission, like if he needs to apply for a job and he needs to go online,

[00:16:59] he's going to have to go to his probation officer and ask for permission to do so

[00:17:03] and how they handle that whether he supervises or he does that, you know, they'll figure that out.

[00:17:09] I'm not exactly sure.

[00:17:11] But that means he can't even walk into an Apple store and play on a tablet.

[00:17:16] No.

[00:17:17] Exactly, without violating parole.

[00:17:20] Exactly.

[00:17:22] And that means that he's automatically back in jail.

[00:17:25] So that also puts on the system that's going to protect these other...

[00:17:29] Like we were talking about earlier, the system that creates the demand for child sexual abuse materials

[00:17:35] he can no longer participate in that system, at least for 20 years after he's out of jail.

[00:17:42] And you know, as we all know, can he...

[00:17:50] Can he keep himself from offending again?

[00:17:54] It's always the question after people are out of jail.

[00:17:58] Right.

[00:17:59] And it's the specific place that he they're wanting to send him, talk about some of that, some...

[00:18:06] Yes.

[00:18:07] ...and what that's...

[00:18:09] They're wanting to rehabilitate him if I understood correctly.

[00:18:13] There are two federal prisons that they're looking at right now but the judge is really pushing for one in particular

[00:18:19] if I remember correctly it's one in Arkansas, which is ironic but...

[00:18:26] Yeah.

[00:18:27] Because they have a very strong sex offender program there that helps reduce recidivism, which is repeat offending.

[00:18:35] So he's not just going to be sitting in jail doing nothing in much of a day.

[00:18:41] Totally, exactly.

[00:18:43] He is going to be pretty...

[00:18:45] ...and he's going to be a lot of friends of friends.

[00:18:48] Which he probably is never seeing growing up in ADI.

[00:18:51] Probably not!

[00:18:52] Yeah!

[00:18:54] So but he is going to be...

[00:18:56] They're hoping to get him in a program that treats sex offenders and helps reduce reoffending.

[00:19:05] So that is also...

[00:19:07] It's a...

[00:19:09] A newer...

[00:19:11] I just realized that they're doing...

[00:19:14] I just realized that it's going to make Anna feel like he's...

[00:19:18] There's hope.

[00:19:20] He's going to come out...

[00:19:22] Okay.

[00:19:23] Yes, statistics on those...

[00:19:25] See that's one of the things that's always gotten me about this case.

[00:19:28] Statistically those programs have very small success rates for which are over a certain age.

[00:19:35] To reduce recidivism, your best chances are catching these cases

[00:19:42] when the offender is young.

[00:19:45] And there might have been hope for Josh if this had been properly dealt with back when he was a teenager.

[00:19:53] But the Sunday sent him to Bill Gothard, which, you know, sending an abuser to another abuser...

[00:19:59] Always a great idea.

[00:20:01] Yeah, right.

[00:20:02] You see where that got us?

[00:20:03] Right, exactly.

[00:20:04] We see where that got us.

[00:20:07] So, you know, whether those programs are successful or not, you know...

[00:20:15] They can be but the statistics aren't great on them.

[00:20:20] But I do think...

[00:20:22] I think there's a lot of sentiment out there of people that are really, really angry and upset

[00:20:27] that 12.5 years sounds ridiculously low.

[00:20:32] It does.

[00:20:33] And I agree.

[00:20:34] I get that 100%.

[00:20:36] People say that this is when FBI investigators say this is some of the worst they've ever seen

[00:20:44] and you only get 12.5 years.

[00:20:48] And you don't have a whole lot of impact on...

[00:20:51] Yeah, you don't have a whole lot of context for that.

[00:20:55] Like, a lot of people think porn is 50 shades of gray.

[00:21:00] Like, they really don't understand that this type of material is not that.

[00:21:06] Because there can't be consent.

[00:21:08] No, and there's not even...

[00:21:10] But adult porn can be consensual.

[00:21:15] Yeah, but at the same time, this is so far beyond that.

[00:21:20] It's not an edgy accidently tip over.

[00:21:24] You know what I'm saying?

[00:21:26] This is something that I think is really important and why I don't like that the news media constantly uses the term child porn.

[00:21:35] Because it's not.

[00:21:37] You don't just stumble on a child porn website.

[00:21:40] No, you...

[00:21:42] The type of material is just straight up torture of children.

[00:21:46] Extreme torture of children.

[00:21:48] It's not like putting in the wrong web address and you just stumble on this.

[00:21:54] You don't have to go looking for it.

[00:21:56] And it's extremely expensive to access.

[00:22:00] So you have to have a special search engine, you have to have a special computer.

[00:22:04] And he did.

[00:22:06] He had special hidden ways.

[00:22:08] Which is why you can't buy the story that the Caleb guy that works in the office accessed his computer and used this at night.

[00:22:17] Like, no.

[00:22:19] Like, that's not what happened.

[00:22:22] He wasn't even there.

[00:22:24] He has alibis for these time frames.

[00:22:26] And the other thing is that Josh went to extensive links, sophisticated measures to gain access and that's by design.

[00:22:38] Like this kind of material you cannot get unless you do these steps, these things that they require.

[00:22:46] And he did it with that covenant eyes on the computer.

[00:22:52] So he did it in a way to avoid detection even from a piece of software that was actively looking for this type of...

[00:23:02] Great.

[00:23:04] So, he...

[00:23:06] Yeah.

[00:23:08] So this takes a lot of good meditation, a lot of effort, a lot of time, a lot of research, a lot of learning.

[00:23:14] You have to learn a whole new way that computers work, a whole new way that the internet works.

[00:23:20] I don't even understand the dark web.

[00:23:22] I don't either.

[00:23:24] But the dark web is where this stuff is.

[00:23:26] This is not on your regular search engine.

[00:23:28] You don't type this in and get this.

[00:23:31] Exactly.

[00:23:32] It's not a thing.

[00:23:34] You can't get it from your...

[00:23:35] You can't hand your kid an iPhone and they stumble across this.

[00:23:38] That's not a thing that happens.

[00:23:40] So the idea that Josh somehow got this way, also by accident just having internet access, is not a thing.

[00:23:50] It's not how it works.

[00:23:54] So he started out offending on actual minors.

[00:24:00] And this is not something he even argues.

[00:24:03] He doesn't argue that he didn't molest his baby sisters.

[00:24:09] He doesn't argue that.

[00:24:12] He doesn't.

[00:24:13] And then he went on to find this material on the web.

[00:24:17] So someone pointed out that in a way, the 12 and a half years might be better than if it had been 20 though.

[00:24:25] Because I might reduce the amount of appeals.

[00:24:29] That we see.

[00:24:32] And as we're doing the amount that we're still looking at 30 years of protection for his children here,

[00:24:41] with the number being a little less time in prison that we might see a little less pushback and time spent in the appeals process.

[00:24:52] That makes sense.

[00:24:53] So that Josh being really careful to look at those points and really follow the letter of the law there.

[00:25:01] And instead of just making an emotional decision here that this is more likely to stand up,

[00:25:10] as we've got these appeals processes.

[00:25:13] And that is a very good thing because we've seen it in other cases before where you get into that appeals process and they strip away years and years and years.

[00:25:25] And that we definitely don't want to see.

[00:25:28] So with this 12.5, I'm really hoping that it stands up through that appeals process.

[00:25:35] And that we do see this full 30 years of protection for all minors including his own children.

[00:25:41] Because 30 years is a long time.

[00:25:43] It is a long time and I think it's worth celebrating a little bit.

[00:25:49] And that's how UNI are feeling tonight is kind of like, okay.

[00:25:55] Still kind of on the edge of my seat to see what happens as the appeals process goes through because it's unpredictable.

[00:26:03] The judge already struck down some major attempts to appeal in the past couple days.

[00:26:10] The convictions yes but the sendencing can still be appealed so I see.

[00:26:15] At least that's how I understand it.

[00:26:17] I'm no lawyer.

[00:26:19] Okay, but I could be wrong but I think that's how I understand it.

[00:26:26] So in like you said he's struck down a lot of the conviction appeals so hopefully you know I feel like he's being very careful to make sure everything is sealed.

[00:26:39] Yeah and that's so important.

[00:26:42] It's more important to be careful and to be accurate with what will stand up rather than being emotional like you are saying.

[00:26:53] So I mean, I'm speaking legally now as survivors you know where everybody is going to feel what they feel.

[00:27:01] Oh yeah and we want to honor and hold space for what everyone feels.

[00:27:07] Exactly.

[00:27:08] Because I know that Kathleen is really struggling tonight and she's going to do a live and talk about how she feels and probably has already by the time you hear this.

[00:27:18] And her feelings are valid as well, you know 100%.

[00:27:24] My feelings you know are just I want Anna free so that she can guide her children out.

[00:27:33] And that is the thing that I struggle with the most.

[00:27:37] It's just wanting that for her and for the kids is for her to find a new life outside of this compound that she lives on.

[00:27:45] I feel a lot of anger towards her because I know as a mom you know I wouldn't literally do anything to protect my kids.

[00:27:59] And you know she has been offered help from her family.

[00:28:06] A lot.

[00:28:07] From her family, from close friends, from close people who are right there.

[00:28:15] They're right there.

[00:28:17] It's not like she has to leave her entire world.

[00:28:20] She just has because half of her world is already left.

[00:28:24] Exactly.

[00:28:25] That's the thing.

[00:28:26] Half of the people in her life that she's known as childhood have already left this cult.

[00:28:32] Right.

[00:28:33] And you and I know that when you leave the cult, you lose people.

[00:28:39] But these people who are offering her help have already left.

[00:28:43] Yes.

[00:28:44] And they're offering her a way out which is, I mean something I didn't have but something you didn't have.

[00:28:49] No.

[00:28:50] We found our way out on our own so to have.

[00:28:53] And I still feel like she could call up people magazine and ask for a sit-down interview in five seconds.

[00:29:02] And they would, and they would advance her quite a bit.

[00:29:07] Oh yeah.

[00:29:08] And they would block the cover for her and they would let her tell her story.

[00:29:12] And if she asked for money, she'd have a million dollars by the end of the day without even blinking to leave, to run, to get to another.

[00:29:23] Part of the planet if she wanted.

[00:29:25] And she would have support of family.

[00:29:27] She would have support of the whole world.

[00:29:32] Really?

[00:29:33] Like you don't know I'm saying like this, the amount of support that she has is just something she hasn't tapped into.

[00:29:40] And it's just a matter of, and then I know I get, you know, the, I don't want to play the game of why doesn't she just leave.

[00:29:50] I don't, I'm not doing that.

[00:29:52] Right because yeah, it takes a lot to leave it does.

[00:29:55] We know we all know like that the reasons people stay but him being behind bars to me removes a huge obstacle.

[00:30:06] And I'm, I'm getting pretty judgmental at this point and as much as I want to not be, but I'm just like honey.

[00:30:16] You know, what point do you become an enabler?

[00:30:19] Yes.

[00:30:20] Right.

[00:30:21] Right.

[00:30:22] And I feel like she's really crossing into that.

[00:30:28] I feel like the court system has taken a lot of that out of her hands.

[00:30:32] I'm black because I'm scared if it was left in her hands where we'd be.

[00:30:37] Oh, we would, nothing would have happened.

[00:30:40] Exactly.

[00:30:41] Well, first of all, she doesn't have, because of the way we were raised, she doesn't even have the capacity to know what is even out there.

[00:30:51] She doesn't even have a capacity to know what he would be looking at and what that would mean and what it even is.

[00:30:58] However, I mean, I'm speaking, and this is why I get so judgey is because you and I, we didn't either and we're older.

[00:31:06] So we were pretty internet.

[00:31:08] Yeah, we were.

[00:31:09] But you and I figured out what was right and wrong for our kids.

[00:31:14] You know, yeah.

[00:31:16] And then with the internet, I know that was so eye opening to circle back to what you said earlier to find out that you're not alone.

[00:31:30] There, the internet has huge, huge far leaving this cult and recovering from this cult and recovering from childhood sexual abuse to learn that I know I always thought that my life was extreme.

[00:31:47] That I was the only person who grew up the way I did that I, that I was just this weird outsider of society and nobody else knew what it was like to have lived my life.

[00:31:59] And then with social media, I learned that there were so many other people like me.

[00:32:05] Yes.

[00:32:06] And we're all out there and we are already to help Anna.

[00:32:11] Oh, yeah.

[00:32:12] Oh, yeah.

[00:32:13] She reaches out the networks are already all set up.

[00:32:17] The foundation is already there and those people are reaching out to her on her social media every day.

[00:32:23] They're saying we're here.

[00:32:25] We're ready whenever you're ready to leave.

[00:32:28] This is where you can go.

[00:32:29] And I've actually sat down with an extended family member of, of their family and talked to them and they've said,

[00:32:41] there's a lot of us who are waiting.

[00:32:45] We're just right here, just outside the door and all she has to do is just tell us that she wants our help and we're here.

[00:32:56] And if anything, I just hope that message gets through to her.

[00:33:01] And if she has some time and I hope that 12 years, 10 years is enough to at least start her on that path of breaking up.

[00:33:10] And just be able to step away and realize she's young enough to start a new life.

[00:33:17] Well, and then that day-to-day of raising all those children on, you know, well, and she's going to honor own, she's with the duggers in that compound.

[00:33:29] But as the day-to-day of living with them, especially as we're not surprisingly seeing the reports of Jim Brun being verbally abusive and all that.

[00:33:44] And controlling?

[00:33:45] Shocker.

[00:33:46] Shocker.

[00:33:47] Color me shocked.

[00:33:49] Oh no!

[00:33:52] You know, she didn't grow up with the duggers and as she gets into the day-to-day reality of living in the dugger house, you know, hopefully she'll start going, no this is not what I want for my kids.

[00:34:05] Yeah, I'm hoping.

[00:34:07] Hoping cross all our fingers and toes.

[00:34:09] Like what else can we do?

[00:34:12] Except keeping one of those voices as like, there's hope on the other side.

[00:34:17] There is a life outside of ATI of IBLP of this world, this mindset.

[00:34:28] Exactly.

[00:34:29] There's a whole other world out there.

[00:34:31] Well, I think that's it.

[00:34:32] I think we covered it all.

[00:34:33] I think we did.

[00:34:34] Do you have anything else on your notes we've missed?

[00:34:37] I went through all my notes.

[00:34:39] Well, thank you all for jumping on with us and listening and hearing where we're at now with the sentencing.

[00:34:50] We wanted to cover that.

[00:34:52] We know that our social media has been blowing up all day and we know that everyone cares about this.

[00:34:59] But I did feel bad that we didn't start at the very beginning just acknowledging all the lives lost in Uvalde, Texas yesterday.

[00:35:09] Yes.

[00:35:10] I meant to say something right away and I forgot but I do want to say that as a Texas resident, I'm reeling and struggling very badly.

[00:35:21] But we all are.

[00:35:23] Anyone in the world with empathy is and just so much pain for this family's in Uvalde, Texas.

[00:35:30] And we just want to say that we planned a vote.

[00:35:36] Right?

[00:35:37] I don't want to send any thoughts and prayers.

[00:35:39] I'm going to tell you that I'm voting in November and that's what I'm going to do.

[00:35:46] But that's the only thing that we forgot to mention.

[00:35:50] I should have said that at the very beginning.

[00:35:52] Yeah, I meant to say that at the beginning as well.

[00:35:54] It's been a rough day here in Texas and in America.

[00:35:59] It's been quite a week.

[00:36:01] The Southern Bab just...

[00:36:03] Yeah.

[00:36:04] The sexual abuse report was also released this week so it's just a few days ago.

[00:36:09] I haven't even had a chance to touch that but I need to get there in my...

[00:36:15] I get to get some head space for that too because I grew up in Southern Baptist churches.

[00:36:19] We grew up in the same church.

[00:36:22] I'm kind of how that works for your childhood friends.

[00:36:27] Yeah and so I'm very disturbed by that as well.

[00:36:33] And then just the shooting in Buffalo was not that long ago as well.

[00:36:38] The worst racially motivated shooting in American history, you know modern American history that we know of.

[00:36:45] It's just absolutely staggering the level of loss that we are grappling with as a country.

[00:36:55] In the middle of a pandemic which is still still struggling our way out of this pandemic because yeah it just can't go away.

[00:37:07] So yeah it's been a rough time and we kept having people comment on our social media today just going...

[00:37:19] One more thing, Josh Dagger is being sentenced in the middle of everything else.

[00:37:27] Right in the middle of everything else let's hang on a second and clock this is one of the things that is happening.

[00:37:35] Because we can't pretend like it didn't happen.

[00:37:38] Exactly.

[00:37:39] This is a big deal to all of us survivors of ATI and this system that created him, that allowed him to...

[00:37:49] thrive and become who he is today.

[00:37:55] Anyway thank you all for coming out along and listening in today and that's it we're going to sign off.

[00:38:03] Thank you for having me here.

[00:38:05] Yes I'm so glad to do it again.

[00:38:08] Yes we'll do it again for sure.

[00:38:10] So thank you again and we'll see you next time on Leaving the Village.

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